Ok, I want to move. I hate my hometown. Hate it. I hate all the people here, all the teachers at my school, just everyone. I'm sick and tired (literally) of all this bullshit. I don't know if this is because of the fact that my thyroid is acting up or not and I won't because the fucking medication won't kick in for almost a month! All I do know is that I'm miserable ad want to get away! But sadly I'm so beyond trapped. I mean, I have no where to go. My mom won't move and I seriously doubt she would let me transfer. I just want to leave. I don't care if its the cowards way out. I have put up with this shit for aalmost 4 years! And unlike what I have been told it is NOT getting better. My urges to beat someone, namely MYSELF, are getting so much worse. I need an escape. I need to just get away. I don't care about collage or university right now. I don't care about whats better for everyone else anymore. I just want to be able to go to school and feel safe and secure. To not feel like I'm a failure everytime a teacher looks at me. I'm getting more and more depressed whichis making me even more confused. People are stabbing me in the back, and I just can't handle my emotions right now. I know that its stupid and hopeless, that it's usless to wish for something that won't happen yet I still find myself doing it! God I just want to MOVE!